Brain Clutter

Well, I’m back again.  Hopefully not going to get the blue screen of death tonight.  =( 

I’m in a strange mood…I probably shouldn’t blog in this mood, but here I am anyway.  I don’t even know how to describe my mood, I’ve just got a lot of stuff on my mind and don’t really know how to talk about it. 

It’s like trying to clean out your house in front of an audience.  You pick up one thing and…oops…that’s kind of private…can’t touch that in front a crowd, let’s try this pile of clutter…nope don’t want to go there.  Okay, how bout just cleaning behind the couch…gag…is that a hairball?  Can the audience please forget they saw that?  How embarrassing!

Yeah, that’s kinda how I feel about doing a brain dump here.  The things that are cluttering up my mind these days are like my underwear drawer…all jumbled up, but necessary, and not something you’d want to sort out in front of a lot of people. 

I mean, just look at my analogies tonight…do you really think a total thought dump would be wisdom?  Yeah, I thought you’d see it my way. 

Here…how bout some gorgeous scenery?  This is from Munchkin’s field trip to the zoo on Thursday.  I didn’t feel all that great on Thursday, but I managed.  I tried to back out on Tuesday when I realized I was going to be exhausted from being sick and not up for walking a gazillion steps from North America all the way to Africa (after driving 2 hours), but the teacher laid the ol’ guilt trip on me and I’m a sucker like that.  I made it, but boy was I tired.  I went to bed at 10 that night and slept til 1 the NEXT day!  Well, I did get up to take the kids to school at 7, but then I came back and went right back to sleep.  I NEVER sleep that much.  Well anyway, back to that scenery:

I’m not quite sure, but I think that yellow stuff in the foreground of that gorgeous scenery, might possibly be ragweed. 

Which might explain why my eyes felt heavy and Munchkin kept saying hers were burning when we were sitting there six inches away from it. 

My eyes are heavy now.  That’s some powerful ragweed.  Or maybe I’m just tired.  I cleaned all 3.5 bathrooms today…that will do it…lol.  And ew…speaking of things you wouldn’t want to clean in front of an audience…haha. 

And now I’m back to thinking about the clutter in my brain that I don’t want to deal with right now.  Which makes me want to just throw up my hands and go to bed…except then, I’ll probably have weird dreams again…which could add to the clutter I don’t want to deal with in my brain.  Aaack…it’s a vicious cycle. 

Speaking of vicious cycles, I was rather annoyed at one of my kids who was expressing their frustrations in a very whiney way, and I was making them aware of how annoying that was and how that never works, and how it makes me sad that they are not thankful even though life’s not always fair…and then God turned it around on me.  And He said, if tomorrow things turn sour on you, wouldn’t you have a hard time being thankful, too?  Oh God, forgive me when I whine…or when I get aggravated at my kids for whining…I have too many things to be thankful for to be whining over any of it…even if I’m only whining on the inside.  I think my tone probably changed in my conversation with the kiddo…I suddenly became a little more understanding.  LOL.  God help me. 

And now, I really AM going to bed.  Weird dreams or not.  =)